Manipulation!

Yeah, Manipulation that's right. Right now, my mind is really confused. I don't know WHAT to think anymore!I mean I have always thought I had friends, but I just noticed I don't. I don't have a trace of "cared for" in my feelings. I think my mom got it into me. She told me my BFF was always using me after I told her we had some sort of fight. I haven't gotten into any sort of big fights like this one before with her and I don't know how she'll respond after it's over with. Will she not want me anymore? Will we be back to normal? I really don't no since we are new coming friends, meaning we've been friends for not that long. 10 Months to be exact, and I'm afraid to loose her. I don't have anyone right now. My friends from high school, but THEY have their middle school BFF's and guess wat darling? I don't. Its not that Im not friendly, I basically get along with everyone but the thing is, I haven't found THE friend. All of my previous BFF's have turned out to be a complete disaster. I trust none of them. Oh so back to my "big" fight, my mom says she manipulates me. Manipulate? No way, she would never do that until I started to think about it. She really doesn't want 2 do a whole lot for me. I'm very loyal, a little too loyal for my sake, so if my friends ever need a favor or ask ANYTHING of me, I'll do it if i can. If I cant I try 2 find a way to do it. I want the same response and obviously I'm not getting that back. She hardly ever helps me out and I dont blame her. I dont ask her to do a whole lot of me, as a matter of fact, I have never asked her to do something 4 me. The thing is she gets mad at me 4 everything. EVERYTHING. and usually they dont end up 2 big fights but I have a sort of feeling this one is.........